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Partner

I see everyone around me have their partner. Life partner, love partner.
The fats, the nerds, the whores, the evils, the outsiders, the bullies, even the badasses, they seem happy with their partner. Even with dark side, they have one person to love who loves them back.

 Is that their luck? Or because they've done something right in their life? Or they know how to love and to be loved? Or just their fate to be lucky in love?

 And here's me. Alone. Unloved.
Call me fat, nerd, outsider, and prick. I'm alone. I'm unloved. I have no partner to live with, to spend the days, to share the happinesses. I'm lost. I miss home. Even I don't really know how it feels to be home and be with my partner. But I want home. Like everyone said, home, where I can love and be loved. Where is my home? I'm lost.

 What's my problem? Too much dark sides? Did something bad? Went in the wrong path? Or just unlucky? Or this is my fate, to be with only my self?

 In my religion, God has written everyone a partner. Well, God, where's mine? Didn't I notice that he's here already? Have I throw him away? Should I wait more days to finally meet him? God, I'm waiting. I know You see this post. I just want You to know that I'll wait patiently for the day when You give me that miracle, love and partner. I believe in You, God.

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